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this is jessika......
for one more week, she's the assistant manager at the store i work at.
why is this picture here? because:
1 - she was almost impossible to get a picture of....
2 - i threatened to post it online if i got a picture of her....
3 - i'm going to miss working with her after she leaves....
she's going back to school to study design, so she's just going to abandon us in our fiery pit of despair. although, i have to be careful how i word this, since she might take it all too seriously if she were to read this.....
jess....if you're reading this....just remember that we're all excited for you, we're hoping the best for you, and we might actually stop resenting you after a time.....so don't feel TOO bad about leaving us.....we might actually get over it someday.
on another note, i've got some thinking to do. with jess leaving, i have to decide if i want to apply for her position. why do it? well for one, more money, which is what it all comes down to for me. also, i feel as though i'm doing a lot of what's is needed for the position already (i've done it before, so it's really nothing new to me). for the most part, i feel like an uncredited assistant manager already. (although others there might not agree with that statement.....but then again they might)
why shouldn't i do it? i haven't been there very long. even though i've done it before, i've only been employed there since mid november. it might not be seen by my other coworkers as being to kosher to try for a.m. when most of them have been there longer than myself. one of my coworkers is applying for the job, and he's been there for quite awhile. i would hate for him to consider my applying for the job to be a slap in his face. and, if i were to get the position (though i'm not saying i would), there might be a lot of resentment held against me by the above stated individual, who i greatly respect and enjoy working with.
then take the 'out of the blue' factor. a good friend of mine has quite an incredible mom who works at children's hospital. evidently, they're expecting an opening soon for a receptionist/designer/jack-of-all-trades. i'll be sending in a resume for it since it pays a considerable amount more than what i'm making now (almost twice what i'm making). again, money is the prime object for me right now.
you're probably thinking that i'm a pretty greedy whore right now, but let me explain.
i know that my employment choices are limited. my only true 'real world' work experiences revolve around retail and dealing with the general public. that's ok. i'm good at it. but right now i'm at a point where i've worked for larger and smaller corporations. i've been my own boss and worked on my own terms. been there, done that. but it's never been for an amount of money that a person can LIVE on.
my wife and i are hoping to have a house someday....have a kid or two....and you can't do that on your average retail pay.....especially in an industry (music) that is completely at war with itself. i'm not even confident that the company i work for will exist for more than another five or six years. i'm not looking for a job that will satisfy me emotionally.....i'm looking for a job that will support me financially, so i can focus on the more important things about life: family, friends and one's personal passions/desires/hopes. the rest is just extra to me.
so please understand why my priorities are where they are......
but as i try to decide if i should apply or not, i wonder if it's really even worth it? will they offer me enough to keep me happy for now? will i still consider employment elsewhere? most of my coworkers seem to get along with me ok....but would that be destroyed if i applied against another coworker? or would it not be an issue.........
on another note, here's a picture of kris taken in maine with expired polaroid film:
i love how some parts of it came out....other parts didn't....i'm especially fond of some of the color shifts (that hopefully comes out ok through your monitor). in fact, the whole pack had a deep blueish coloring to it, with central smears of changing color. some were more noticeable than others.
i'm hoping to get more scanned soon, but i haven't had much free time and my scanner is getting really slow.....i'm hoping to upgrade it at some point for something with a larger scanning bed......if only i had the money to do that.......wait. now i'm getting back on the job subject......
ron
