Friday - 05.24.02

12:33 AM - the assistant manager at my store (who's quite cool, by the way) asked me if i was excited about becoming a key holder. i guess i'm supposed to have all kinds of power now........not sure. i just kind of shrugged my shoulders and went 'yeh......i guess......i've done it before'.

the more i think about it, though, the more i realize that having power in and of itself (in any form) really doesn't do anything for me. what i've always enjoyed in those circumstances has been to use what power i have to do something good (in this sort of instance, getting my work done while making sure my coworker's and enjoying themselves).

since i haven't had much in the way of caffeine the last couple of weeks, i've been rather droopy at work, and people have been asking 'are you ok?' and 'are you mad?'.

i'm beginning to think that maybe it's time to start drinking at least MODERATE amounts of mountain dew again just to maintain some kind of friendlier attitude.

i know none of this sounds entertaining at all, but i'm just not in the mood for that right now.

bed........must..........now........go.........

Ron

11:47 PM -

10:43 PM - kris and i were supposed to go out to dinner with a good friend of ours and HER best friend. alas, this was canceled since the best-friend's husband walked out on her after she discovered that he had been cheating on her for a couple of months. now, don't get me wrong.....i feel bad for her and the pain she's going through. BUT....at the same time.....well, how to put this delicately.....THE GUY IS A F@%KN' KNOB!

there....i said it. he should be immediately sacrificed so that his flesh may better serve a patient in a burn center. it would be best for all.

i don't feel this way because of what he did. no. he earned his knob-hood ages ago. i won't go into details, but suffice to say he has the inability to hold ANY kind of job longer than two months (no exaggeration) simply because he gets 'tired' of them. that's the start of a LONG list of issues.....she'll be much better off when the divorce is finished and he's settled in at a homeless shelter after his current fling dumps his cracker ass.

anyways, kris and i still went out to dinner in a popular framingham italian eatery (with a one-hour wait). good food, just make sure you dodge the waitress' trays as they fly 'em right over your head (again....no exaggeration). oh....and i would recommend that the waitress' LEARN TO ASK IF YOU NEED A REFILL WHEN THEY SEE THAT YOUR DRINK HAS BEEN EMPTY FOR MORE THAN HALF AN HOUR.

but i'm not going to nitpick....

yet the final bout of fun was my first (and last) foray into the nationwide food-chain "trader joe's". this is where people who can afford to may get 'better' food than the regular supermarkets sell. but for some reason all the employees wear hawaiian print shirts of various styles. chips are not only made with potato, but with dried string beans mixed with twigs and berries for a total colonic experience.

but what i don't really understand is how the entire store smelled just like dog food.

Ron

10:31 AM - another day.....heading in to work in a few minutes.

last night i was asked if i was interested in becoming a keyholder.....so i asked if a raise was involved.

she said yes.

i said yes.

so i guess i'm going to be keyholder, yet again, for another corporate entity.

after over a decade working retail, the only thing that has really changed is the carpeting i stand on.

Ron

11:56 PM - last of the night.....getting ready for sleep. but i will leave you with one last vision of horror.

Ozzy Osbourne's daughter has jumped started her own singing career. today at work we received a promo cd of her singing Madonna's 'papa don't preach' .......you know the one.......about her 'keepin' her baby'.

what keeps it funny for me, though, is the fact that word on the street is that her backing band is none other than Incubus. he. he.....hehehehe.

why am i SO not surprised.

but what's sad is that on the basis of the tv show 'the Osbournes', it will probably sell like crazy.

Ron

12:47 PM - people who are angry at the world are just taking a break from being angry at themselves.

12:11 PM - about a year and three months ago, i was a comic book retailer. i owned my own business, and was my own only employee. now i work for a company that, for the most part, has aided in giving comic book stores a bad name. a company that, for the most part, dropped comic books from their store's stocks (they have to keep a shelf or two of them since the word 'comics' is in their name).

yes....i feel like a total whore.

i've done my best to boost the comic section of the one that i work at, but it's not the same. but that's probably a good thing, because for the past year i've HATED comics more than i could have ever imagined.

you see, if you surround yourself with something you love for, say 80 plus hours or more a week.....and you base your financial stability around that love....your love is going to turn to loathing. then frustration. then total unadulterated hatred.

soon enough, that hatred will be directed towards everyone around you. then finally, when that STILL doesn't make matters any better, you turn that emotional 9mm towards yourself. (pull the trigger....go ahead....and make sure everyone else knows you're killing yourself).

at least that's how it turned out for me.

i'm hoping that i've shaken myself loose of that. i'm reading comics again with enthusiasm. i'm looking forward to building pages on this site to showcase the reads that i love. i've re-planned and re-built nohtv.com about ten times on my hard drive, but they never satisfied me.

maybe i need to redo andy lee's section first.....get my feet wet again (and relearn everything i've forgotten).

i also have a special site that i have left undone for FAR to long.....sorry carrie. and thanks for not bugging me about it.

then, maybe i'll be able to play with this site some more.

Ron

09:47 AM - this puppy is finally up and running. i planned on making one of my first posts an explanation as to where i've disappeared to this past year.....but that's just going to have to wait.

for now, you'll just have to settle for this temporary depository of mediocre words and thoughts.

as time goes on, i'll be using this blog to let you know what's going on with what. this means, when i've played around with a site design, you'll here it here first. when i choose to rant about work, family or friends, you'll have the opportunity to read about (some of) it here.

names won't be changed to protect anybody.....but they might not even be used so i don't burn too many bridges.

i'm going into this with good intentions. i hope to post frequently, but that remains to be seen.

Ron

09:23 AM - So.....the final posting for last night DIDN'T show up, because I couldn't FTP anything to the site for some reason. I emailed customer support about it, and I got an email saying they accessed it with NO PROBLEM! ARGHHH! So, I tried this morning......AND HAD NO PROBLEM!

Further evidence suggesting that my personal conspirators are poltergeists....

Ron

10:25 PM - here's one last posting tonight to make sure that the tweaking i've done hasn't broken anything else. if it has messed anything up, i'll just go kill something and then try again tomorrow. - Ron

09:17 PM - well.....that posted.....let's see if the bugs are out yet......

09:06 PM - Does this show up?